210521 What I learned in my studies this morning

My sweet little boy 

Passing as the seasons do. 

Easier now? No. 

Am I sufficiently accustomed to the idea that I may someday lose the things I have? Have I practiced amor fati, love of fate, enough that I can confidently say to myself, "If tomorrow I am robbed of [health / wealth / this or that thing / this or that person], I can endure."? 

I doubt it. It's something I need to work on. It's not about not caring or giving up, it's about persevering in the face of hardship. 

I've done it once in my life. I still struggle with that loss. He'd have been 12 today. 

But I have miles to go before I sleep....