230319 What I learned in my studies this morning 3

An ancient evil

Sits about the world, judging.

Man serving sinning.

An ancient goodness

Sits inside his head, judging.

Man serving reason.

Thoughts:

Impulses or directed action? Do I jump at the first reaction that comes unbidden, unexamined, untested to mind? "Hi ho let's follow and see what happens!"?

Yeah. No.

But it's hard not to. It's not easy to push away what I instinctively want to do. Punching that stupid driver in the face. Telling the bosses at work to shove it up their ass. Yelling at my kid for doing something that annoys me. 

I experience these sudden urges on the regular. No matter how many times they lead to trouble when obeyed or how many times ignoring them lead to a more peaceful, positive outcome, I still feel them first and most powerfully.

I need to write a mental script which processes these feelings in the background so I can just start at step 2.

Today's Meditation:

Today's Meditation II:

Today's Meditation III: