230522 What I learned in my studies this morning 3

Lots of thoughts on death.

Lots of thoughts of focused heart.

Lots of reflection.

Thoughts:

"In theory these mementos serve to bring back the moment. In fact, they only serve to make clear how inadequately I appreciated the moment when it was here.” ~ Joan Didion on thinking of the items of her lost loved ones

I have mementos of my son. They bring to life some of the wonderful person he was. And yet, as Ms. Didion says above, they all show me just how cavalierly I squandered my time with him.

There was always tomorrow. Always another day to play the game he wanted to play. Always time to read him another story the next day.

Until there wasn't.

His passing refocused my attention with those I love. I'm not perfect. I still let things slide, planning on getting to them The Next Day. 

But not nearly as much as before. And there are many times I've now paid special attention, trying to gain every last drop of experience with my family and give them every last bit of my attention and love. Today.

Today's Meditation:

Today's Meditation II:

Today's Meditation III:

Today's Meditation IV: