231018 What I learned in my studies this morning 3

Hearing music
Meditating harmonies
Melodies. Wisdom.

Today's Meditation(s):

The problem is I think I have time. Even though I've nearly died more than once. Even though my son died. Even though my father is dying.

Stop delaying. Get to it already.

This isn't a punishment. I like spending time with my family and friends. I like being a dad and a husband. I like my parents and my siblings and my in-laws.

And all of the crap I do instead — the television and Facebook and games and shit! — is never worth it. Ever. It never provides the happiness it promises. It can never equal the joy my loved ones give me.

So why do I still do it? Damned dopamine drip.