241129 What I learned in my studies this morning 5*

Today's Meditation(s):

Realizing that I am not creative has been an epiphany, and a letdown, for me. 

All my life, I've believed that worthwhile things — art, leadership, entrepreneurship —  all involved creativity. All required a vision to make something new or improved.

 
But thats not me. I do best within a system. Granted, my best is when I am breaking the rules of said system, but that's only when I've mastered the system. It's using loopholes and ambiguities to do what I want while breaking the rules in only just the right way.

But that's just playing with the settings until it works the way I want it to work, it's not coming up with a novel idea or purpose or passion. It's not a wholesale creative act.

And I always wondered why I wasn't successful in such endeavors: I never had a spark that separates those who attempt from those who merely try.