250220 What I learned in my studies this morning 5

Today's Meditation(s):

Letters on Ethics by Seneca, LXVI.43 (Graver)

**** died twelve years ago today. Dad died 10 months ago.

Sweet boy, you died so young. My God, you'd be almost 16. In my imagination, you're the perfect brother. Helping your older siblings, mentoring your younger brothers. Playing Ultimate with **** and I every weekend and on a team with ****. And you'd both be even better because you had each other to measure yourselves against.

You'd be tall and athletic. Intelligent, diligent, and kind. You'd be tough, but gentle. And everyone would love you.

I know it's a perfect fantasy, but I also truly believe it would be closer to the truth than not.