230305 What I learned in my studies this morning 3

Zombies invade dreams

Frustration finding fam'ly.

Friend rides into waves.

Thoughts:

Long, involved, forgotten. Isn't that how most dreams are? 

It was set in an early-zombie apocalypse world, the kind where people are still panicking and the gov't still thinks they can win.

Looking for my wife and kids. Barricading a weird mall-type building. Watching my friend commit suicide by riding a motorcycle into a 100 ft wave. It was odd.

Of all the things, watching my friend's suicide was an intensely Stoic moment. 

First, it was very him. Didn't say goodbye, just did it. Giant wave coming in. Drove the bike out about 20 yards into the sea and calmly looked up as the wave crashed over him.

I was quickly overwhelmed with grief watching the sea as it retreated, looking for any sign of my friend of more than 40 years.  There was none. 

Then I considered what had happened. His family was gone. He'd nothing left. The world was dying and he couldn't change that. So he took the open door.

I mentally saluted him, accepted that my friend had chosen his own way and committed to it wholly, and turned to go find my own family who was still (potentially) alive at this point.

Today's Meditation: