230320 What I learned in my studies this morning 3

"I'd advise against it."

Where was I? Oh. MRI.

Waiting for results.

Thoughts:

My dad is in the hospital. Again. Been an experience. Again.  Frustrating for everyone. My dad, my mom, my sister, my brother, me, the hospital staff . . . everyone.

Dad is in his 80s.  Been slowly going downhill for the past few years. So much trouble with his health.  So many issues. And they stack and interact and complicate each other so everybody gets confused.

I've thought about asking him if he's thought about dying. I'd be shocked if he hasn't. The question I have though is what has he thought about it.

Does it scare him? Does he worry about what comes next? Or about my mom being left behind? Or his children (grown) and grandchildren? Or his legacy? All? None? Something else?

Has he studied ways of dealing with this primal fear or is he winging it?

He's a devout believer, so I expect and hope he is helped by that. I pray that it comforts him.

Perhaps I can have that talk with him soon. I wonder if philosophical thinking would be beneficial for him? 

No, I don't think he's dying. I just am not sure how much time he has left. Months? Years? 

Either way, I should stop dawdling and have that heart-to-heart.  Just hard to find a time when we can talk privately for a good while without being interrupted.

Today's Meditation:

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Today's Meditation III: