230523 What I learned in my studies this morning 3

Thoughts:

Am I living a beautiful life? A life of excellence of character? A life of virtue?

What's the scale? How many times can I fuck up and still consider myself a lover of wisdom? Is one too much? Is a million ok so long as I'm sincerely sorry and honestly set about to not do it again?

Caught between what's the math here, being too strict with myself, and sliding down a slippery slope of justification. 

Mediations 5.9: Don't be disgusted, don't give up, don't be impatient if you do not carry out entirely conduct based in every detail upon right principles; but after a fall return again, and rejoice if most of your actions are worthier of human character.

 Today's Meditation:

Today's Meditation II:

Today's Meditation III: