231104 What I learned in my studies this morning 3

Calm. Still. Clear. Light. Mute.
Plan. Wait. Poised. Paused. Cool. Hushed. Wait.

Then I screw it up.

Today's Meditation(s):

I teach my children: which will be more likely to bring about the result you seek? Reacting in a sudden passion or acting with deliberate reason?

They have known the right answer since they were just kids.

And today I failed: I got into an argument and didn't keep my calm.

I should have disengaged sooner. I should have left the area. I should have remembered my principles. I didn't. 

Instead, I ended up back in the disagreement and failed to control myself. I reacted poorly, escalated things, and regretted it even as I said the wrong things.

I need to be better.