250929 What I learned in my studies this morning 5

Today's Meditation(s):

The Pocket Thich Nhat Hanh (ed. by Melvin McLeod), Appropriate Attention

Happiness here, now is possible. I've been and will be happy. But my baseline is not.

I'm not chasing the illogical, impossible phantom that is an ever-happy life. I just mean that my baseline is below where it would be without my guilt. Far below.

Minus my sin, my life is good. As someone once said (my memory and Google Fu both fail me), 'He who has only my troubles is lucky indeed.'

But I can't let it go. And I'm a fool to be like this. More than.